There it is.
That’s the countdown until the VT50. At least it was when I started writing this blogpost. By now it’s whittled away further.
Otherwise known as the Vermont 50.
Otherwise known as Colby’s First 50k.
Otherwise known as What the fuck was I thinking when I signed up for an Ultra Marathon in the Green Mountain State?!?!
I think I just blacked out.
This taper has been faaaar more emotional than any other taper for me. And I’ve done 7 of them. I’m not quite sure why I’ve been on the verge of mental collapse the past week and a half, but there it is. I have been.
I’m a goddamn mess.
Perhaps it’s tapering + life stress? Perhaps it’s because I made the critical mistake of reading some bullshit “You don’t have to be crazy to run an ultra marathon, just prepared!” article which listed Tips To A Successful Ultra when I should have read it 4 months ago? The first tip was: Stay flat. Yeah. I pretty much blew that one right out of the box. Perhaps it’s because I’m a “Roadie” who segued into a “Trail Runner” which is totally unchartered territory for me? Or perhaps it was the teeny tiny voice of a Little One the other day?
Yeah maybe that was it.
So on Sunday, My Other Half, His Two Quarters and I went for a walk with The Beagle. Just the 5 of us. We always take the kids to the beautiful trails near our house, where I have learned to love trail running. There is an estuary there and there are always all sorts of amazing birds fishing for supper. I was feeling blue on Sunday. Life stress. Work stress. 50K Stress. Taper stress. Running stress. Achy body stress. All at once I felt overwhelmed. Really overwhelmed. So there we all are watching this beautiful bird, a green heron, fish away. She was teetering on the edge of a thin branch, patiently waiting, dangling 2 inches from the surface. Still. Calm. So focused. So controlled. So determined. So confident in herself. She was on the precipice of disaster on a very weak branch. But she kept at it. I envied her. And her wings.
Little One: She must really be hungry. She really wants that fish.
She sure does.
Little One: Have you seen her here?
No Sweetheart. Never.
Little One: {Surprised.} You explore a lot.
I do Sweetheart. A whole bunch.
She pauses. I can see her thinking. Really thinking. A slow smile creeps across her face.
Little One: You are a Runner.
I feel myself well up. And actually choke back tears. Out of the blue. There it was out of the mouths of babes. It was just what I needed to hear myself say. Out loud. Clearly. With conviction.
I am sweetheart. I am a Runner.
Let the countdown roll on.
You are a runner kid. Just breathe through the taper.
Cheers – Andy
Thanks, Andy. Stress can getcha, huh?
Yup.
Have you seen my new blog? I’m on a self hosted site now. Things are a little different over there.
I’m at http://www.omnirunning.com. My old blog has a re-direct, but I’m not sure how well it’s working. I’m also curious is wordpress bloggers have the “follow” button when they are looking at a self hosted site.
If you have a chance to look, let me know if things are actually working.
Andy
Congrats Andy!!!! I’ll check it out immediately!!!! Fantastic!!!
There is an immediate redirect from your old blog to your new. Although I can’t see a follow button. I’m also on my phone, in bed with a cup of coffee so maybe that’s why I can’t see a damn thing. I’ll letcha know!!!! 🙂
Thanks! Don’t spill that coffee!
🙂 Never! That’s a sin!
You are solid and you’re going to kick serious butt because you are a runner and that’s what you do, no matter how difficult the challenge.
Believe in your strength.
I might write “Believe in your strength” on my arm. In Sharpie. So I don’t forget! Thank you for the kind words Tracy. 🙂
Aw… Y’made me cry. You ARE a kick as** runner, m’dear. You’ve got this race, no matter what that article says. I can’t wait to read about it! (Honestly, my 50K was better than all the marathons I’ve ever done. So much joy and satisfaction at the finish line!) Have fun!
Damn article! Damn stress! I loved reading about your whole journey Alaina! I’m hoping to have a joyful finish! Xoxo
You are going to pone this in so many ways. Trust your training, trust your taper, go for walks, and allllll the body glide.
I ❤️ body glide. And you Suze! Trust is tough when you’re all stressed. Massage today. And deep breathes. 🙂
Just think – next time you take that walk, you can smack her and remind her that you’re an ultra-runner!
(Just kidding – you know I love little Miss Quarter! As does Nicole)
YOU’RE GOING TO DO GREAT!!!!
I’m cracking up. That Little Squirt choked me all up! She’s a pip. But next time, rest assure I will correct that kid. 😉
Awwww no worries mommie you got this and your kiddo even knows a freakin’ BOSS runner when they see one. I did get a chuckle at your “I blacked out” statement lol 🙂 you are going to do AWESOME!!!
I just borrow the kiddo, she’s my other half’s, but I love her just the same. I’m always trying to drag ’em running. Poor things are exhausted. And thank you! I can’t wait for the recap CUZ I am finishing this bitch! 🙂
Oh I already consider DONE!!! lol 🙂
Best of luck to you. You are better prepared than you think. Just remember that it’s even more important to start off slower in the beginning. You’ll rock this.
Good advice, Lady! Nice and slow. I am sllllowly starting to get excited. Less rocking in the corner, more smiling in the middle of the room. 🙂 Thank you!
You’ll do great. You’re a runner. Go get ’em kid.
http://pscapp.wordpress.com/2014/07/21/that-makes-me-a-runner/
Aww. Thanks Chief. 🙂 I’ll make ya proud.
And…I loved that post of yours.
You’re fit! You’re fabulous! You rock!! You’re strong!! You’re going to have a fabulous race!!! XOXO!!!
I swear. I think I might just message you directly (after I text Tina of course) for the boost! You’re the best!! Thank you, Lady!! 🙂
Awww!!! I’m here for ya!!! You can do it!! You’re going to do it!! XOXO!!!
🙂
You’re so effing awesome. You got this girl!
Thanks so much Helly. I freaking hope so!!! 🙂
I think it’s understandable that the taper-crazies are a little worse than usual before your first 50k 😉
But I am so so so excited for you, and can’t wait to read all about it (hopefully) next week. You’ve got this, you’ve put in the hard work, just enjoy the beautiful trail on those runner legs of yours! 🙂
Thank you so much for your support Amber! I love this little running community we have going on here! And yes—you will definitely be reading about the Good, Bad and Ugly of the race! I’m slowly starting to settle down.
You just keep running, right? 🙂
You can do this!!! You are more than ready and you’re going to kill it. GOOD LUCK!!!
Thank you!!!! I stinking hope so!! 🙂
Killin me over here. Catching up is a roller coaster with you two.
DOMINICK. I missed you!!!!!! {Sigh.} All is right in the world. I hope you are well. xoxo
I have to say, things are going very well! Slowly making my way back to the blahgosphere.
I’m so happy to hear that. I missed ya. 🙂